Everyone I knew was reading it, but I didn’t want to. Season of the
Witch is a look at my adopted home town of San Francisco, moving from the
Summer of Love in 1967 to the dark, dark ‘80’s to redemption at the end of the
decade. But finally I relented and was swept into the meticulously researched
and well-written account of how the city moved through its different phases and
events that would not only define and redefine its culture, but ripple out to
the world beyond as well.
I first came to the Bay Area (more Berkeley than San Francisco) in the
summer of ’72, five years after that living announcement of a new world. In
that short time, the edges of love began to cave and crumble, the
mind-expanding good vibes drugs of LSD and marijuana were shifting to meth and
cocaine and heroine. The neighborhood rock bands playing free for the people
had entered the fray of big business rock star frame. The euphoria of
envisioning a world beyond the dull buttoned down business career, repressed
sexuality, double standard alcoholics putting down pot, a Machiavellian
education system, a horrific war, still vicious racism was still alive and palpable
in those early days of my arrival in San Francisco. But hard drugs, fame,
money, homeless runaways trying to escape it all with no plan or clear idea of
what they were running to, all of that was part of the reason the dream was
beginning to fray at the issues.
I loved living in the thick of it and am grateful that I did. My hippie
start-up days were at Antioch College in Yellow Springs, Ohio and when I
graduated in 1973, San Francisco was the obvious next step. I lived on Shrader
Street, one block from the Panhandle and one block from Haight Street. I never
was homeless or into hard drugs or by then, even that obsessed with pot and
it’s cousins. I had just begun to craft a vision of a positive alternative to
everything we critiqued in the form of a new education and was impatient with
merely grooving with the now or insisting on armed revolution. I was losing
friends to Guru Marahaji, Hare Krishna, hard-core leftists, Jesus freakism, growing
increasingly concerned about a vulnerability to be scammed and taken in by the
mysterious East or the Che-modelled West.
It was a time of great cultural upheaval and birthed incredible music, a faith in human goodness that had me hitchhiking four times across the
country, new and larger definitions of Spirit and Soul and courageous
determination to work toward social justice, for blacks, for Latinos, for
Native Americans, for the poor, for women, for children and last on the list,
but the seeds beginning to sprout, for gay folks. But times of rapid change to
open up the highs and lows, light and darks of human possibility and there it
was, the whole catastrophe, living at the extremes, not much time for the grey
middle zone of simple social harmony.
And as the book so painfully chronicles, darkness descended. I couldn’t
help but be pulled into the macabre world of the Zodiac killer, the Zebra
killings, Patty Hearst and the SLA, the Jonestown Mass Suicide, the murder of
Mayor Moscone and Harvey Milk, the lenient sentencing of Dan White, the AIDS
epidemic. I was traveling around the world for a year at the time of Jonestown
and the Moscone/Milk murder, so didn’t feel the full impact as much as the rest
of my friends. But I was living and working in San Francisco during the rest of it. Truth be told, I was as worried about nuclear catastrophe under Reagan's watch as the local Zebra killers and trying to create a positive atmosphere with two daughters born in 1980 and 1984. But reading through this book, there is no question about it— these were dark times for the mythical Baghdad by the Bay.
And then came the glimmers of redemption. A surprising needed politic
style of Dianne Feinstein, the 49’ers toppling the Dallas Cowboys rein and
going on to win the Super Bowl, the community response to the AIDS crisis and
more. San Francisco was a phoenix rising from its own ashes and spreading its
wings to fly closer to the mountain peaks of individual freedom of expression,
social justice, diverse co-existence, sustainability and just plain fun.
But I couldn’t help but be struck by the idea that a city, like a
person, can grow up. The first hippies were all under thirty, pure in their
hopes and dream and intentions, but without any elder guiding star or any idea
of the work involved in moving from mere rejection to building brick-by-brick a
positive alternative. We were kids. Young, naïve, innocent. Not only the first
flower children, but the first gay immigration as well. The antidote to
repression was pure uninhibited expression, sex without commitment, the first
ecstatic freedoms of coming out. Yee-haw. Seen from the far end of 64 years
old, it’s no wonder that such unbridled expression irked the working class
folks and the Catholic church-goers and the responsible adults raising kids.
And then the dark times came. I don’t believe it was wholly a cause-and
–effect, some divine retribution for attempting to fly so close to the sun. It
was just life’s way of shattering naivete and innocence and passing it through
the crucible of death and destruction to see if it still might emerge at the
other end, not wholly beaten-down, but borne up by a more mature understanding
of what freedom and expression and work really means.
And that, I believe, is precisely what happened in San Francisco. No one
can imagine the Supreme Court deciding that walking naked through the streets,
having sex in public, partying day and night, is the inalienable right of every
American citizen, gay or straight. But from its “Whoopee” roots, the gay
community moved on to gay marriage, asking for the chance to have their
committed relationship recognized, the chance to be in the hospital with their
lover when that time came. That’s a mature vision that the greater culture
finally has legally accepted (though many still needing work culturally or individually).
The mind-expanding drugs matured to a rigorous practice of meditation or yoga,
the politic outrage to sustained vision of working for the rights of all with
multiple strategies. In short, we grew up. But with the vision still intact,
though different. The vision grew up with us.
Not that the work is done or can ever be. San Francisco has other
challenges now, the hi-rise mania back, the immigration of high-rolling IT
hipsters pricing just about everyone out of their neighborhoods. It’s always a
work in progress. But as I flew over my beloved city from Portland yesterday, I
couldn’t help but feel renewed love and admiration and appreciation for what it
stands for, what it offers the world, what is yet has to accomplish.
And I want to be there for it.
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