Monday is the first day of staff meetings and I won’t be
there. They’ll take the staff photo and for the second year in a row, I won’t
be in it. Nobody has suggested photo-shopping me in and that’s fine. But when I
do arrive at school, I’m there 150% and still feel like I’m part of this grand
adventure, as I have been the last 43 years.
The balance between work in school and the work I do outside
of school continues to ebb and flow. Between the year 2000 and 2013, I shared
the job with my colleagues James and Sofia so that we each had three months off
during the year. That’s how we continued our international teacher training and
written the books we have. In the last five years, we all have been present for
the Fall Intern program and then gotten 6 weeks off each to continue the
international teaching. And now this Fall, we’ll take a year off from the
Intern Program, something I suggested so I’d have enough time to write again,
with as many as 3 to 5 books feeling ready to be written and lacking only time
to do them. So I will have this Fall to get as far as I can on these projects.
Usually at this time of year, I begin having the school
nightmares and it’s interesting being with my daughter Talia (5th
grade teacher at the school), who is continuing that tradition. But my wise
subconscious knows that I won’t be officially teaching at school again until
January and has left me alone. Likewise my wife who retired two years ago.
The question of a final retirement from The San Francisco
School (hopefully, never from my work in general) continues to haunt me and I
keep wondering why some voice doesn’t definitively tell me, “Now!” I suspect
once I close those doors, other doors might open that have been waiting for me
and my biggest fear is wondering whether I should have done it earlier. But
truly, the work with the kids still feeds me, the participation in this
community still feels mostly good and short of a world tour with my Pentatonics
Jazz Band, can’t imagine much that I’d love to do that I’m not already doing.
But this much is clear. Monday is the Staff Photo and I won’t
be in it.
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