Monday, August 7, 2017

Follow Your Bliss (List)

“Be here now” said Baba Ram Dass back in the 60’s and it was good advice. Being wholly present in the moment is always a good idea. Children are gifted that for free, but the price of adulthood is that we are always torn three ways— planning for both the immediate and distant future, thinking back to the past with pleasure, pride or regret and doing our best to wholly savor the taste of the meal in front of us instead of wolfing it down on our way to our next appointment. It’s just the way things are.

So with a whole free weekend ahead of me amidst fabulously wonderful people, great weather and the natural beauty of the Carmel Valley, my main goal was to catch up with my growing list of things “to do.” Read 40 Level III reflections on the first week of our Orff training, correct 20 orchestration assignments, get two plane flights for the Fall, make a flyer for next year’s workshop series, keep searching for housing for our Interns, Skype with my grandkids, meet with my staff to schedule the 2nd week, do my laundry, etc. etc and again etc. With all of that hanging over my shoulder, the fantasy that I couldn’t wholly be here now until all of that was accomplished.

And it’s partly true. Still though, I found time to swim and read by the pool and go to a good movie (The Big Sick) and play Bach, Schubert, Poulenc and Cole Porter on the exquisite Steinway in the theater and go out to a few fun faculty dinners and occasionally breathe just a bit deeper and hear the birds singing while sitting on my deck. And at the same time, mostly catching up, though flights to Cedar Rapids, Iowa are expensive and difficult time-wise, housing in San Francisco is ridiculous and as soon as I crossed something off my list, another thing popped up to take its place.

Joseph Campbell famously advised “Follow your bliss” and so happy to be teaching my 5th Orff Course this summer and soon to do a 6th and then return to school, I have been blessed to do just that. But a long time back, a friend, responding to my little Memo book of “to do lists” in my front pocket (still carry one!), made a T-shirt for me that said “Follow your list.” And it turns out the two are related. The path to bliss is through the thorny details of planning the next steps with your list. At least for me.

This morning, we will sing our way through 400 years of Western Music History. In order for that to be as sublime as I hope it will be, I have some planning to do. 

Friday, August 4, 2017

Still Here With Me

Dear Dad,

You left us 10 years ago. How can that be? Around this time, I was about to see you for the last time. I went to teach in Toronto and you were gone on August 15th. I’m sure that when I left you in your Novato house, I did what I often did. Drove back home down 101 South over the Golden Gate Bridge listening to Blossom Dearie’s album The Diva Series and weeping.

So tonight, near the end of my first week teaching my 26th Summer Orff Levels Course, I had some 40 assignments waiting for me to read them. After teaching all day and giving an hour plus lecture, it was hard to face. But I had the good idea of listening to some music while working and stumbled on Blossom’s album. And just like a smell can transport you instantly to Grandma’s kitchen and all the feelings that went along with it, so Blossom takes me to you.

Of course, your photo is on my desk, Mom’s too, so you’re never that far. But these songs brought me to the heart of you, the whole complication of a father and son sharing 56 years together on this planet, as well as the beauty of the healing and forgiveness and gratitude and appreciation and deep love that gathered together in your last 15 years after you moved to California and then intensified in the last 6 months as you struggled to recover (at 88 years old) from your triple by-pass surgery and then finally gave up. Stopped eating and stayed with us for 10 more weeks with plenty of time for goodbyes. Time spent listening to music, talking, laughing, crying, watching old movies. And though I was sorry not to be by your side at the last moments, it was about as good a goodbye as it could have been.

No matter how much we work to accept that life is a perpetual goodbye, the grief is always there alongside the joy. But tonight, I feel you here and it’s a great blessing. I like who I have become and am endlessly grateful that the outer world has met the inner world to offer the work and play just right for me. I know you were proud of me and I believe you knew how I grew to appreciate you and both mean the world to me.

So Dad, just wanted to let you know you are still here with me and why not share it with the few folks who read these things? If their folks are still alive, it might edge them toward more appreciation, forgiveness, love. If their folks have passed, they might know what I’m talking about. Now Blossom is singing “Someone to Watch Over Me” and I feel you looking down. Thanks forever for being my father.

Your always loving son,

Doug

Thursday, August 3, 2017

The Lecturer


I have had too much to say about everything my entire adult life. To my credit, I’ve looked for the appropriate forms to express what I think the world needs to hear. Or at least what I think I need to get out of my head and out into the air. And so articles, books, blogs, classes with Middle School kids, comments in workshops. But it was the last that got me into trouble as we went from a rollicking good time playing, singing and dancing to my soapbox lecture on the importance of what we just did. As my Level III class can testify, that hasn’t changed too much. But I am getting better and keeping it short and on point and really, it’s the most ripe time to receive the ideas, fresh from some activity that gave them life and breath.

Some 20 years ago, I created a ritual talk during the Levels trainings to give the idea of a lecture its proper place. A time when no one is wondering when I’m going to stop talking and when we’re going to sing or play again. Everyone who comes is clear why we are there, are aware of the proposed ending time and can relax and settle back into a listening mode. It works.

With so many participants who don’t have English as a first language, I’ve had to rely more on the visuals of the Powerpoint Presentation, not only reinforcing some of the spoken with the written, but showing photos and videos as well. It’s a great way to bring the kids into the adult training and connect all of it with the actual life of music teachers in a school. And a good way for me to deepen my thinking about a particular aspect of this complex work.

This year, I decided to use an article Carl Orff wrote in 1932 as the centerpiece of the talk. But how could I just elaborate on his educational and pedagogical ideas without noting that he wrote this year one year before Hitler took power? Answer? I couldn’t. Especially since there were so many parallels with what’s happening now in the good ole U.S. of A.

But the Editor in me, who is not always doing his job well, thought it was too off-topic and I found myself being pulled to a new theme about Musical Community and Imagination. I followed my impulse and even though that theme is also too broad, that’s what I’ll be sharing in exactly 40 minutes from now. But having invested the time in the 1932/ 2017 connection, I thought I should at least post that on my blog.

Which I have done. Read ahead (well, technically behind—it will appear as the blog before this one.) 

Lesson from the Past

“Every time history repeats itself, the price goes up.”

In 1932, Carl Orff  was 37 years old and had worked some eight years now in the Guntherschule, a radical experimental school investigating a new way of learning, feeling and creating music and dance. The students were all young women in their late teens exploring the new concepts of dance unleashed by people like Isadore Duncan, Mary Wigman, Ruth St. Denis and Ted Shawn. Orff was hired as the music teacher training the dancers to create their own accompanying music using their own bodies and voices, small percussion instruments and later xylophones.

During this time, Orff became friends with Eberhard Preussner who was the Director of the Music Department of the Central institute for Education and Training in Berlin. (Preussner appeared again some 30 years later as an important person in the Schulwerk when he much later became the head of the Mozarteum and invited Orff to create the Orff Institut as a department within the Mozarteum in 1961.)  Preussner introduced Orff to one of his important colleagues, Leo Kestenberg, who in turn invited Orff to begin introducing the Schulwerk into Berlin schools. This was the first time the work was turned towards children and Orff was feverishly excited about the possibilities.

Consider the place. Preussner describe Berlin in 1932 as “a place that had something to offer that could be described as an attempt to build a new society, a city whose intellectual life was shaped by Einstein, Planck, Spengler and where Schoenberg, Hindemith, Busoni worked, indeed, a metropolis of minds and music. Certainly those ten or twelve years were full of tensions that were not, however, pushed to one side, but were experienced, suffered and used. One was full of hope and of apprehension…”

Consider the time. 1932. Just one short year later, Hitler was elected chancellor and within three short months, everything that leaned toward social justice, religious freedom, intellectual activity, diverse thinking was slammed shut and 12 years of nightmare ensued. As a Jew, Kestenberg was forced to flee, first to Prague and then Paris and later Israel. All his notable reforms in music education in his former role were overturned and Orff’s possibility to introduce his humanistic ideas in Berlin were closed.

Note the parallels with today. Hope and apprehension mixed, a society vibrant with diverse people, diverse thinking, intellectual rigor and imaginative vision shut down in three short months. If you were a Jew or a Jehovah’s Witness or gay or Sinti/Roma gypsy or disabled or a political dissident or a socially misfit person who listened to jazz, you were already being herded into “starter” concentration camps and later part of the genocide of some 6 million Jews and some 5 million “others.”

Now compare this to Trump’s attempts in the first six months of his office: The Muslim Ban, hope to overturn gay marriage, defund schools and arts program, deny science and intellectual thought, mock the disabled, keep transgender people out of the military, fire anyone who asks too many questions. It all adds up to the same idea of killing diverse thought and diverse living and diverse worship and reducing it to the narrow bandwidth of rich, straight, white males. He pushes aside the Montenegro President and stands with his jaw out like Mussolini, talks to the French president’s wife about her body, tells the Boy Scouts that Obama was a disaster.

But there are three significant differences:

1)   Hitler had an ideology of the Master Race that captured the imagination of a beaten-down people, allowed them to commit atrocities in the name of a beautiful imagined future. Trump’s idea of a Master Race is he, himself and him. Yes, he hits on the same human flaws that Hitler did, fooling poor whites into thinking that they’re part of the good ole boys club, but not with the same ability to articulate and ultimately fool them.

2)   Our 250-year history of free speech, flawed as the free part may be, makes it much more difficult for him to shut down dissent. The fact that I can give this talk without fear of storm troopers, post things about Trump’s idiocy on Facebook, teach children in my school about social justice, put a RESIST bumper sticker on my car and freely watch Stephen Colbert, Trevor Noah, John Oliver, Rachel Maddow, Samantha Bee and more on more or less mainstream TV is a sign of hope that we can educate people who might eventually vote more intelligently. And that is why it’s more important than ever to keep speaking up and speaking out while we have that privilege. It could change. While we can speak, this is not a time to keep silent.

3)   The one thing the German citizens didn’t have as they went along with the lemming-like rush to disaster is the story of something like Nazi Germany to guide them. For this willing to look into it, we know where this can lead and thus, have the possibility of choosing not to repeat history.

There was much criticism of Orff in the 1990’s for not speaking out more strongly or fleeing and much conjecture about how much he collaborated with the Party.  That’s the subject for another talk. In his favor, we can say with authority that even when Gunther required all her teachers to join the Nazi Party, Orff did not. I see him as a musician who hoped to stay to the side of politics and did what he could to survive. Which mostly meant trying to stay under the radar and out of the way even as Carmina Burana had its premier performance in 1937.

What I’d like to accent here is his profound understanding of the role of art in human culture and creativity within art and the special promise of young children. In my experience, the Orff idea and ideal of music for all realized in an inclusive musical community that welcomes diverse expression is the exact antithesis of everything Hitler stood for and Trump stands for. When done with integrity and intelligence, it offers precisely the healing our broken world needs. Most of the teachers I meet who come to the Orff trainings come to further elevate both their integrity and intelligence in thinking about how to teach humanistically through this vibrant pedagogy. For it’s only by creating a new generation of children who feel comfortable with ambiguity, who feel welcomed and celebrated, who have the means to find their power through artistic and spiritual expression that we have any hope of surviving—and indeed, thriving—in the future. 

Tuesday, August 1, 2017

Destiny's Driver


I love the way this work (teaching music via the Orff approach) provokes questions. Often unanswerable questions, or at least, not easily answerable. Because a good Orff class demands the impossible—equal ease in diverse human faculties and skills—everyone hits a wall or ten or rattles a locked door frustrated that they can’t enter. And at the same time, each discovers the door that opens automatically the moment they approach and then slams shut on the person behind them.

How we respond to those openings and closings says a lot about who we are and who we might become. If we feel defeated by the walls or too sassy and proud about the openings, we might find ourselves stuck and unable to take the simplest steps to becoming larger than we are. And let’s face it—we’re all smaller than we might be. In today’s class, we felt the unique contours of music from Ireland, Uganda, China, Bolivia, the black South, Slovenia, jazz and each (to paraphrase Emerson) unlocked another faculty of Soul. We struggled with demanding body percussion, searched for the right scale on the recorder, soloed on the blues and at each step of the way, could have been paralyzed by that horrid “You’re not good enough” voice in our ear. But buoyed up the our fellow folks struggling with their own quest for mastery, a kind enough teacher not out to shame or blame us (that’s me!) and swept up in the energy of the music itself, we all came through the other side of our doubts and had a rollicking good time.

Talking about this issue of the doors that open and the doors that close with one of the students, I found myself saying, “That’s what’s driving our destiny. We shape our life around our absolutely unique set of skills and non-skills and find the work that fits the way we’re put together."

That is, if we’re lucky. I suspect some prefer to be sad, bitter or angry about that they can or can’t do and/or sad, bitter or angry that the world had nothing to offer them that made sense for their way of being. But for those willing to persevere and keep knocking until the door is finally opened—or have the wisdom to give up and try another door—I believe the world does respond.

It certainly has for me.