Saturday, May 17, 2025

A Sense of Wonder

 

The scientist Rachel Carson eloquently reminded us that “If a child is to keep alive her inborn sense of wonder, she needs the companionship of at least one adult who can share it, rediscovering with her the joy, excitement, and mystery of the world we live in.”

 

Note that she suggests that if we are to gift the children with the inheritance they deserve. we adults need to keep that alive in ourselves, restore “awe” to its proper meaning in our own lives. Today I felt my own sense of wonder wholly restored gazing at the cave paintings in the Lascaux caves. 

 

To feel communion with our ancestors, so artfully and reverently expressed in these remarkable paintings, is an extraordinary experience—especially considering they lived 21,000 years ago! It was the beginning of Homo Sapiens, people that looked and perhaps felt and thought like us. One might ask, “With such a promising beginning, what happened to us?!!” 

 

Yesterday, the engravings in the cave we visited were impressive, but not easy to see and fairly subtle. But these cave paintings, many in color using manganese and ochre on calcite, perfectly preserved over these many thousands of years, were simply astonishing in their size, detail, overlapping images and sheer artistry. We went to two different sites, both actually replicas of the originals to save them from tourist wear and tear. But the painstaking details the restorers went through is an astonishment in and of itself. Our two guides were both knowledgeable and charming and the story of the cave’s discovery was yet another miracle. (Not to be told here.)

 

All of this made yet more memorable by a beautiful two-hour bike ride there and another equally lovely two-hour bike ride back to the town of Eyzies. A delightful and delicious pizza dinner outdoors, that included a Caesar salad served in a crust and a remarkable chocolate ice cream for dessert that cost all of two Euros. For those curious, the prices in general here are a welcome change from the minimum $15 sandwich of any kind in the U.S., I bought a little quiche for lunch that was more than enough for the equivalent of  $3.50. 

 

But away from the mundane and back to the miracles. This traveler is grateful to have witnessed and remembered what I felt as a child—there indeed is magic and mystery in this marvelous world. Not only in the hidden caves under the earth, but in the hidden depths of our own being. May it rise up!

 

PS A few photos from Lascaux:









 

  

Friday, May 16, 2025

Life Abundant

There is no finer feeling than coasting on a country road while the world is waking up. The smell of early morning in the air, the birds singing the day in. Two horses in the field run together simply for the joy of it, the cottonweed trees dance in the breeze, the verdant wild grasses on the side of the road bow as we pass. Here is Life, in all its full splendor! The simple wonder of being alive, moving, breathing, feeling, dreaming. It is enough. It is more than enough. It is everything. 

 

Of course, the death-dealers are everywhere. The ones who wake up in the morning thinking, "Who can I hurt today? " Alongside those who squander life, fill it with mere distraction, drug it up or drug it down, refuse to praise or bless or to own their joy, walk through their incarnation like zombies, enclose their hearts in locked chests, let the brainwashers control their minds. “Away with them!” I long to say, but you see how their toxic omnipresence in the air enters my lungs and threatens to darken everything. 

 

But on a morning bike riding through the French countryside, they are whooshed away in the wind. (It’s only when I sit down later to write that they pull up a chair.) The glory of it all stayed with us for the full four hours and almost 40 miles of riding, ending at the Grotto of the Combarelles, one of the local caves that tells us that people like us, yearning to express themselves in images still preserved lived some 15,000 years ago. We witnessed their extraordinary praise of horses, bison, reindeer, a lion, a fish and more etched into the cave walls.

 

By now it was late afternoon and just enough time to dive into the hotel’s perfect temperature (77 Fahrenheit) swimming pool in a luxuriant yard and garden. And then into our evening dress for another 3-course feast.  Life abundant and I cherish it all. 

Thursday, May 15, 2025

True Retirement

Beginning by reading Walden as an impressionable teen and continuing into my college investigation of yoga and Zen, I began to organize my life hoping to find “the peace that passeth all understanding.” 50 years later, I think it has finally arrived. 

 

It’s the end of our first day of actual biking through the lovely Dordogne Region countryside. We arrived at a hotel with a lovely (but too cold!) pool, a wandering cat, a couple of friendly ponies and a countryside quiet that has entered every cell of my body. One of those rare moments where the inside and the outside are in perfect equilibrium. The temperature neither demands bundling up from the cold nor seeking relief from the heat. The silence is pure, not a single human sound or passing car or chainsaw, just the gentle murmur of the water in the pool, a quiet whoosh from a small breeze and the punctuations of birds far and near. 

 

My body knows no pain, demands no attention, my mind is stilled, my heart is overflowing with the blessing of tranquility. There is no driving desire to possess this, to make it last forever, to change my life. And yet I can’t help but think: What if I truly retired? Just spent my days wrapped in this leisure and quiet? Get off of Facebook, check e-mail once a week or once a month. Stop watching Warriors' games or caring if they win. Hand over my Pentatonic Press to someone else, get off of the two Boards I'm President of, give up directing the summer Orff Course. Move to France and get a piano brought in, build a little library of books. Keep writing not to convince anyone of a single thing but just to praise and notice and use words as envoys of blessings. Stop trying to heal or change this hopelessly broken world, stop feeling the outrage and the powerlessness. Let go of my need to incessantly speak out against the insanity and cruelty and horrible ignorance of it all. 

 

What would it be like to accept that I’ve done what I could? It was so far from enough, but hopefully brought little sparks of joy and happiness to others here and there and perhaps that’s all I should have expected. What might it be like to retire as they have done in India, fully leave one’s work wholly behind and just go off into the woods (or the French country estate) and savor each and every minute of my remaining time? To stop moving around so much? To let go the long documenting of my life and give away the books and records and workshop notes and basement full of saved nostalgia. To relinquish my memberships to the various groups and (gasp!), stop going to and giving Orff workshops. Just me and the cat and the ponies and the trees and the quiet and the pool (maybe get it heated?). Just wondering.

 

At the moment, it’s a most delicious and appealing thought.  

The French Connection: Part III

My little story below is drawn from some 25,00 to 80,000 English words of French origin. 

I found a Website with a list, but with about 1,000 words per letter, couldn’t get past C in one sitting. (Hence, the preponderance of ABC words below, with a few others thrown in.) All italic words below are derived from French. Enjoy!

 

Last Autumn, some 30 years after commencement, my old college companions decided to rendezvous in New Orleans for a reunion. If you looked at our dossiers, you would find that one was an architect from Vermont, one an avant-garde artist from San Francisco, one an attorney from Chicago who was also a wine connoisseur, one an au pair from Des Moines, one an agile accomplished acrobat from Delaware and the last a bourgeois aristocrat from Baton Rouge, who had his chauffeur drive him in his limousine to the café  where we met for croissants, crepes and beignets. 


Besides the professional accomplishmentsof my acquaintances, it was both amusing and amazing to note how different we had become from when we knew each other as older adolescents. One was a celibate bachelor who abstained from sex and liquor, another an ambitious entrepreneur with a big appetite for the finer things in life, one an amateur author who had taken up crocheting, one an adventurer who also had many adulterous affairs. Another was a chauvinist who provoked many arguments praising the conservative government and predicting the downfall of civilization from subversive pacifist  liberals, spouting clichés he had learned from Fox News. 

 

“Don’t be absurd!” some admonished him. “Those people are illiterate charlatans. Stop being a bigoted baboon, a seditious scoundrel and a clueless capitalist!”  Another advised that we not sabotage the comradery with such stupid skirmishes and that helped appease the situation. We admitted that we had made a faux-pas and agreed that talking politics was poisonous and we should abstain. Or otherwise, hire a chaperone.

 

After the café we sauntered down the boulevard, encountered a detour and maneuvered around some debris and made our way to a fancy restaurant at the end of a cul-de-sac. There we were treated to a sumptuous banquet: beef tartare, quiche lorraine, coq au vin, vichyssoise, ratatouille, soufflé, jambalaya, creme brûlée. Quite a cuisine! The artist and the acrobat, not part of the nouveau riche, preferred to order a la carte. With the champagne and bourbon and a carafe of Cabernet flowing, things loosened up. 

 

After dinner, we considered going to a séance or play billiards or go to a film noir festival or gamble playing roulette, but instead decided to go to a chic jazz club because the restaurant had offered us some coupons for a cheaper price and there was only a short queue to get in.  We were particularly enchanted by one chanteuse who just had a certain je ne sais quoi. She knew our acrobat friend and at her supplication, they performed a Vaudeville routine together that ended in a spectacular somersault. It was the piece de resistance of the evening. 

 

We all agreed we should meet again and Voila! everyone took out their phones to check their calendars. But by the end, we couldn’t agree on a date. Oh well.  Ce la vie!

  

Wednesday, May 14, 2025

Language Matters

Words matter. Or at least they used to. Not only in political discourse, honest journalism and proper education, but apparently, they once were a vital part of wooing one’s future love. At least according to Cyrano de Bergerac, that inspired poet whose large nose made courting actual women a challenge. So he offered his talents to his dull-witted friend Christian and seduced Roxanne into falling in love with him (Christian), both speaking hidden under her balcony and writing her letter after letter.  Without giving too much away, she thinks she’s in love with the man but in reality is in love with the person who could speak such an eloquent love-language. 

 

We went to an interesting presentation of this play in the perfect place —Bergerac!! Then took a lovely boat ride on the town’s river in perfect temperature. Strolled back to the hotel peeking into the various stores with their beautiful wooden toys, hand-crafted kitchen ware, affordable luxuriant wine and of course, an afternoon ice cream. Took a cold plunge into the swimming pool, sipped the wine and met with the organizers of our bike tour to meet our bikes and get everything ready for the first day of riding tomorrow. 

 

Earlier in the day, we went to a Farmer’s Market, always so heartening to wander between the booths with the fresh fruits and vegetables, breads and pastries, cheeses, nougat, 15 different kinds of honey and more. We bought some bread, cheese and tomatoes for a picnic lunch. But first walked past the kora harp player from Senegal playing his fabulous music in front of the church and then entered the church serenaded by the organ. Between the instrument that I first studied when I was six years old and the cathedral feeling that brought me back to that most marvelous first trip to Europe with my college chorus, it was like crossing several bridges back to my younger years and each one reminding me of those magical landscapes. 

 

Dinner awaits. Stay tuned for another look at the power of language in The French Connection III that will look at just some of the thousands of words we use in English that are of French origin. Look forward to seeing you at that rendezvous. But first a walk past the carousel on the way to the restaurant hoping for some tasty hors d’oeuvres suggested by the maître d. Maybe a soufflé?

The Usefulness of Beauty

“You are always eager to make everything useful, yet here is a useless plot. It would be much better to have salads here than boquets.”

 

…the bishop replied, “You are mistaken. The beautiful is as useful as the useful.” He added after a moment’s pause. “Perhaps more so.”

 

-       Victor Hugo: Les Miserables

 

Just as we know something is rotten in the state of Denmark from the smell of it, so do we know something is glorious in the state of France by the feeling in our heart wholly unhampered by pesky doubts of questions. There are always plenty of finger-pointing reasons we can name when we are unhappy or out-of-sorts, but often that deep-seated sensation of pure unadulterated happiness just simply is, neither the need to overly-analyze or any clear cause and effect explanation. 

 

But if I had explain why my step is lighter and my conversations more free-flowing with friends or strangers on trains or why I’m feeling like I’m crossing back over some bridge to my childhood contentment (un-adulterated), I could name a few. 

 

Simplest is that I more or less jumped through all those irritating, exasperating, frustrating and sometimes downright maddening hoops I had to get through to come out of the other side to the leisure of “vacation.” Nothing much to do for a couple of days but wander and wonder. 

 

But the greater uplift I believe comes from the sensation I often have in Europe. That soaking-in of the charm of the architecture, the cleanliness of the streets, the attention to well-cooked food, the human-scale of small buildings,  some car-less streets and many parks. In general, the attention to beauty, to quality of life over sheer quantity, of long lunch breaks, long dinners with friends and family, stimulating talks about art and literature and language and history from well-educated people who know so much and are so interested in learning more. 

 

By contrast, the American mentality has long reduced everything to dollars and preferred efficiency and usefulness to beauty, quantity of life to quality of life, fast over slow, surface over deep, now over lasting and all of that manifests in a landscape of extraordinary natural beauty being littered with billboards and shopping malls and highways with fast food chains at rest-stops. Ugliness is okay as long as the goods are cheap, reading is reduced to sound-bytes and stock reports and magazines about celebrity’s lives. Just today I got an e-mail sent through my Website urging me to “turn my interest into income.” No thank you. 

 

Well, there’s a sure-fire way to darken my happiness! Bring up my deep disappointment and sadness in the way my country has been willing to sell its soul to the devil of usefulness and efficiency and distraction and get-rich-quick schemes. So let’s cork up that malevolent genie back in the bottle and return to the grace of happiness restored. 

 

The day began in Paris with a quiche and coffee breakfast eaten outdoors in lovely weather, watching the Parisians pass by on their way to work or school at a leisurely pace, no frantic edge to it. We walked to the train station and boarded the bullet train south. Truth be told, the increased speed was useful and efficient, but I missed the more pleasurable sensation of a slower trip through the countryside. But thoroughly enjoyed the spontaneous conversation with an Australian couple around our age who were also heading to a short bike trip. 

 

The second train to Bergerac was a more conventional speed and began with a woman sitting across from our friends Dennis and Gerry who suddenly put on some music and said to Dennis, “Let’s dance!!!” And after continuing to insist after he politely declined, he finally did! A short minute, but hey, that doesn’t happen every day on train rides! She then went to talk with Gerry (in French) about her challenges being an Arabic woman in modern day French society. 

 

From the train to the hotel and out to wonder this charming city. I believe that’s when my happiness started to rise, soaking in the loveliness of it all. Stopped for an afternoon ice cream, peeked into a shop window with delightful wooden toys for children, another with handcrafted items including wooden spoons which Dennis convinced me to buy because I loved their sound playing them as a musical instrument, walked along the river a bit, sat down for a late afternoon glass of wine (we’re in France, after all) and then continued on to a delicious Vietnamese dinner where I taught my other six companions the cork trick (too hard to explain here), much to everyone’s delight. 


One of the store windows had these picnic baskets and they captured everything I’m trying to express here about paying attention to the fine things in life.  The exquisite woven baskets, the carefully-made places for real silverware, wine glasses, bottle openers, plates and more. No paper plates or plastic spoons and forks or take-out fast food in styrofoam containers. Things carefully and artfully made and long-enough lunch hours or leisurely weekend to take them out and lay out a tablecloth on a picnic table alongside the river with home-cooked food, fresh bread, fresh fruits and vegetables and of course, some wine or Perrier sparkling water. 



So as that marvelous French author Victor Hugo said above:

“The beautiful is as useful as the useful… Perhaps more so.”

 

At the very least, it makes me happy. 

  

The French Connection: Part II

THE FRENCH CONNECTION: Part II

 

Philosophers

Descartes, Pascal, Rousseau, Simone de Beauvoir, Sartre, Foucault

 

Scientists

Louis Pasteur, Marie Curie,  Jean Itard (physician who worked with the Wild Child), Jacques Costeau

 

Historical Figures

Charlemagne, Joan of Arc, Champlain,  Napoleon, Marie Antoinette, Robespierre, Marquis de Sade, Tocqueville, Lafayette, Charles de Gaulle


Fashion Designers

Coco Chanel, Christian Dior, Yves St. Laurent

 

Common words with “French”

French fries, French toast, French braid, French poodle, French roast (coffee), French kissing